30 Aug.

Kate Miller - Heidke - Are You Fucking Kidding Me?

fever night.

I don't understand why are we still talking like before.

hmmmm. . .


oh, I remembered. We have no more string.

That's the only differences now.

- This is words, for you.

I know you are hurting badly deep inside,
The agony in your eyes and the sorrowful words you used.

Twenty months together, I have never know what's on your mind,
all I knew was your bad habits and some tricks.

Everyone thought i understand you so well. No, they're wrong.

You've never shared with me your thoughts or problems,
neither was I allow to ask. I'll get your nasty replies instead.

Many times, I feel hurt as thou the world came crashing down.
I felt so little being in your house, being despite.

I never give up, because I believed in you, love you.

Most of the time, I feel like I was only your shadow. Moment of joy don't last.
But moments with you last more than a lifetime. It's true!

I went through all the ups and downs with you, It makes me stronger and more positive!
Thou many times, I really wanna give up on us because it's so hard to break your ice.
I didn't. I'll take days to go into deep thoughts and stand up strong again.

I never give up, because I believed in you, love you.

Your repel is so strong, not matter how hard I've tried i got bounce back.

I admit i went into the frozen zone.
I went into a doubts and negatives clearing mindset. It was so hard so hard for me to forget about all the nightmares and negatives issues that mingled in my mind every fucking single day. I was on the verge of breaking down but I have no one to talk to,
You used to be my best friend, my lover, my partner yet everything changed.

That night, I dreamt of the happy moments when we first met. I woke up in the middle of the night with a lighter heart as thou everything bad was gone. I finally felt happy again!

I was happy, overjoyed. All ready to love you unconditionally again. But the "again" never have a chance to prove.

You dumped me.

What Are Words.

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them, When you say them
What are words, If they're only for good times
Then they don't.

When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close.

a pity.

human have only 1 face, but many sides.

shouldn't care more because you're not important anymore.

Go ahead and feed on your own ego. It's just a matter of time.

One day you'll realized even as a friend, I just wanna protect you.

push me away, keep pushing. Let's see who's real who's not.

we're purely friends.

goodbye, my fat love.

when, i return again. We're be purely friends.

take it back, your pack of lies.

On 6 July 2010,

You said, through email.

baby im really sorry about last night.. dun be scared of me..
i promise that will never happen again. you should never cry again unless i have to go before you do.
i made a promise to myself that i should never make you tear unhappy tears.
it hurts me deep inside when i see you cry last night. it hurt real bad.
im afraid of losing you because your to important in my life.

love ya baby girl.
turtle tan.



Today, I remind you. You looked into my eyes and bravely said, " I don't love you anymore".

it's been 16days.

you leave me with nothing , nothing but the question why.

liar, liars.

baby, i always BELIEVED you will love me forever.

6moredays

you posted,

Its your love - Tim McGraw feat Faith Hill.









I'll let you go, and you can move on . . .

loves,
S

happy bday sweetpie.

just let me hold on for awhile more and your wish will be granted.

turtle. . .

when you broke the ice, you broke my heart as well.

I could see the agony in your eyes, it kills. Seriously

Don't say you're bored or lonely as you pushed me away.

I know, you wanna fly, fly into another sky. One without me.

I know, you don't love me at all.

I've tried, I'm tired, really exhausted.

I've learn my lesson, If the heart is never there,

No matter how hard i try, I'll fall even harder.


loves,

S


*memories is another way of torturing what's left inside the heart.*

11.11

baby, all i wished is to have you back in my arms again.

7th day.

the answer will be out soon? I doubt so.

Congrates.

I see you set your wings, ready to fly.

10 August, 2.30am

All the things i wanna say.

Christina Aguilera - Hurt

To: Hou Kwang

by the time you read this, I bet your feeling for me is completely gone.

but I would like you to know that, I'm here still waiting for you.

People are telling me to let go, to abandon you. But no, I won't ! You're my sweetpie / fatboy / baby / turtlettt.

Nothing will change what I felt for you. It's gonna be quarter into my life and I'm clear that I wanna spend the next 3/4 quarter with you.

I dunno what change your mind about us.

I always thought we were stable and we both love each other deep and having sparks everyday to maintain wasn't necessary. I'm wrong. Adults do need sparks everyday too. In our hearts.

I am missing you dearly, but I'm standing on my feet staying strong. I've sort out my mind, negatives and positives.

I've changed.

You should knew it through the night of communicating.

One day, I wished you will sort out yours as well and listen to your own hearts and be brave to love again.

I'm waiting, waiting for the day, you came to me and fetch me HOME.

If you still loves me. We will build our own family too!


Loves,

S

9/8/2011

happy monthsary!

goodbye baby. . .

One, you're like a dream come true,

Two, just wanna be with you,

Three, "baby", it's plain to see that you're the only one for me and,

Four, repeat steps one through three,

Five, make you fall in love with me,

If ever I believe my work is done, then I'll start back at one,